After sehri this morning, I prayed a few raka'ahs of tahajjud and sat to make du'a. I was trying to take advantage of the last third of the night, when prayers are more likely to be answered. But I struggled. I kept getting tempted to open my computer -- to look at what, I don't really know. But I could barely sit still. I actually walked to my computer and then walked myself back to my prayer mat a couple of times.
Later in the day, I prayed at the Pickering Islamic Centre. It's a beautiful masjid. One of my favourites. And I found it so much easier to pray. And to focus. And still my mind. It was amazing.
It was as if my attention was water in a dam and distractions like my computer were leaks in that dam, allowing my attention to trickle away. When I was at the masjid, I could focus. The dam held. There were no leaks. Now I just need to figure out how to plug those leaks when they appear. Because Pickering is a long way to go to focus and pray.
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